Sunday, May 27, 2007
"i got lots of picture in my head, so why don't you turn off the projector?'
omg you know what. i haven't blogged in fkn FOREVER! i suck. well so hmmmm.. gee things have changed lots! i blogged last when.. the easter show? phwoar. well i'm a brace face now. i broke a bit of the wire on friday but so its kinda stabbing me but regardless, brace face it is. oh my gosh i broke my phone today. it completely split into two pieces. and i'm SO dead if my dad finds out. and its so gay cause stupid 3 phones have locked sims so i can't put it in different phones. so i don't know what to doooo.. i also have my music performance tomorrow. which i'll probably screw up under pressure, so there ya are. the current stresses and annoyances of uppy.
oh i found the best song that matches me right now. it doesn't completely match me but y'know. close enough yeah? Friends and Alibis by Escape The Fate. who incidentally is the sexiest band ever. and i WOULD'VE seen them at Taste Of Chaos if i was allowed to go with trev and chris. grrrr.
ahh my situation.. no one knows about it. good thing toooo.. see if people knew, or knew partly, they'd assume stuff, and it'd kinda spread like butter and become totally obscure.. so i prefer to keep it to my better half, my bestie. since i don't have the other kind of other half. anyway.. its really hard. i'm gonna explode soon.. its kinda too much to handle sometimes. its like a piggy in the middle game.. where you're talking to both throwers and they're both tossing the ball around happily and you can't get it. no matter howwww much you try. cause you just can't. and you can't do anything about it either. its either really bad timing or bad luck or just.. fate? oh how i wish i could "escape the fate" like the band.. and i swore i wouldn't let this happen to me again. but surprise surprise, i fell into the trap again! oh how naive i am. so what do you do now? do you just keep copping it? and having to face it? or is there actually something i can do about it? i know there is.. but the question is. should i, would i, and could i? i don't think i should, i don't think i would and i don't think i could either.. so well. end of that idea. what next? anything else i can do? i could just.. be happy with what i have i guess. thats the right thing to do right? but then people wouldn't get anywhere in life if they were always "happy with what they had", they'd always stay at that position. when people work, they try get better so they can move up yeah? they're taking risks so they can better themselves, but why aren't they happy with what they have? should they be? or is it right for them to want more and achieve more and move up? ahh but the difference here. is that wanting more for them is a possibility. wanting more for me, is not exactly achievable. i mean, i just can't. its not possible. so i should be happy with what i have yeah? all these questions.. who gets to answer them? ROFL, i need Answer Man from Comedy Inc.. i wonder if i could get him to come! maybe he could give me some answers..
upPAY UP! posted | 9:13 PM
